Category: listen

Reinvention

I’m slowly coming to the realization that I want more. Not material things, not friends, not money….more out of life, more enjoyable moments, and more meaningful relationships. I want to do more, be more, and provide more for others. This is something that has been brewing for a while in my mind and soul; it just recently came to light for me consciously. I am getting those “wild hairs”, but they are very good hairs and are bringing clarity and positivity to my life. While I can’t control those around me and their chaos, I can control mine and transform it into something positive. Those are my keywords are of late: reinvention, transformation, positivity, meaningful.

I saw a great article on reinvention yesterday during lunch: 5 Steps to Reinvent Yourself.

It caught my eye for a number of reasons. There are a lot of things going on in my life right now. Not all that I can write about publicly on here, but important nonetheless. I’m working on reinventing myself – physically, spiritually, mentally and professionally.

First up is fitness (flashback to Fergie, “My body stay vicious. I be up in the gym just working on my fitness.” lol) and that is going well. I recently finished an 8 week Boot Camp with Graham from G57 Training and Fitness.  It definitely kicked my butt and also lit a fire in me to keep going. I did the Race for the Cure back in October (my first 5K) and it was awesome. I walked it, but I still did it. I trained for a few months beforehand to build up my endurance since I wasn’t doing ANY exercising before that. After that, I worked on some more small races/walks. I’m still “walking”, but that’s mostly because my knees aren’t great and everything jiggles too much for my liking (my badonkadonk). I walk fast, so I’m fine with that for now. I started doing personal training with Graham this week to keep the momentum going. He’s kicking my butt and it’s great. I’m tracking food and calories on Livestrong for him to review, meeting twice a week to work out, and drinking more water than I ever have in my life. I’m excited and ready.

I’ve also subscribed to the Tiny Buddha daily emails which go hand in hand with my spiritual journey. There was another great article today that complemented yesterday’s nicely: 3 Questions Worth Asking to Find the Right Answer for You. They both spoke to me on many levels and I’m taking them to heart. I am going to formulate some concrete ideas, yard sticks and long term goals for myself using these articles and the tools and questions they contain.

I’m currently working on Step 1 of the 5 Steps above. This will give way to discovering more about myself, how to live more authentically, and decide what direction I want my reinvention to take. I have so many ideas swirling in my head…so many things I am passionate about and want to explore. I want to embrace this life and start doing the things I love, not just the things I know and are comfortable with.

Why not go out on a limb? After all, isn’t that where the fruit is?

Love yourself.
Find peace inside.
Share happiness.

Listening

Every morning I wake up. I take a shower. And then I crawl back into bed for a while. Depending on if the neighbors woke me up before my alarm goes off, some mornings I may get more time back in bed than others. I love it. I try to go back to sleep (I have a 2nd alarm set so that I always have 15-20 minutes back in bed after the shower). I have been doing this for months and I have only fallen back asleep once. I must have been really tired that day.

Most mornings I lie there and listen. To everything around me. I hear water running (the people upstairs taking a shower), I hear dogs bark sometimes, I hear people walk down the stairs…going to work. But mostly I hear the birds or silence. It’s been darker in the mornings…so it’s nice to watch the light slowly seep through my windows and turn my room blue.

I usually think while I’m lying there. I think about what I need to do today or what I want to do today (like write this post). I think about people I have been meaning to call back and haven’t yet. I have that same thought every morning until I call them back. It’s very strange – like an alarm – that goes off about the same thing at the same time of the day everyday until I’ve turned it off by calling them back. Yet, throughout the day I forget to call them. Until the next morning when I’m lying there.

I think about things I should have said or done. I think about things I want to say and do. I mostly just think. I wish I didn’t. I take that time each morning to try and get a cat nap in (yes, I realize I just woke up) and feel a little less tired. Yet I never nap. I can’t turn off my brain. I’ve tried. It just doesn’t work. So I just lie there and think about stuff.

And then my alarm goes off and I get up and get ready.

That’s what I do every morning.