Sooo, I guess you could say the waiting game is over. Sort of. Or getting there. Sort of. Slowly. Painfully slow. Still. But it’s moving!
A week ago I blogged about the new special someone in my life and how slow things were going and how I didn’t know if we were to “that place” where you can talk openly with each other about feelings and such. That stuff doesn’t happen over night. A lot has happened in a week. And I’m very happy. We still haven’t rushed into anything, but there is progress. Not necessarily with our emotions or moving to the next level, but in our communication. Remember how I went on about wanting to be able to talk to him about how I’ve been feeling lately? Needing that in my life right now? I got it. The same day I wrote that entry. That night he could tell something wasn’t right and he made me tell him. Which was nice…so nice. We talked for hours and I told him everything. Probably TMI too soon, but he took it all in stride. And better yet, he did his best to lift me up after spilling my guts. That was exactly what I needed and I didn’t even know it. I thought I just needed someone to listen, but I realized afterward I needed that support and that other point of view – from the outside – to help remind me how amazing my life really is right now.
– I have this amazing friend who has been with me through many stages of my life. She’s seen it all when it comes to me and she’s never judged. She’s never criticized. She’s been brutally honest, but always diplomatic. She knew how hard it was for me to put myself out with there with him like that – to expose my not-so-happy side. And she continues to be one of my biggest fans (and I hers). She’s always supportive and encouraging. And proud of me. And that’s a good feeling because I think so highly of her and her opinions. She is one part of why my life is so amazing right now. Thank you, L. –
Back to Mud: It was wonderful getting to know each other in those ways and realizing how much we do care about each other already. Realizing that he does want to be that person for me and I want to be that for him. I want to be a friend that he can call any time and lean on when things are tough.
We’ll see what happens, but it’s going. And he makes me happy.