Friday Favorites

Two words: Mandi Rae.
This woman is amazing.
http://b-metro.com/birmingfamous-mandi-rae/15483/
It also happens to be her birthday so double the Friday fun.
I’m glad she’s in my life.
Get some of her in yours too.

#TBT to That Time I Nearly Vomited on 100 People

Today is Throwback Thursday, right? Great! Let’s throw it back to less than an hour ago when I nearly hurled on 100 very nice people at the top of the Kress building in downtown Birmingham.

Tonight was one of my favorite nights in Birmingham – the Sidewalk Film Festival $10k Party where they sell 150 tickets and one lucky person walks away with $10,000 at the end of the night. It was also three years ago tonight that my husband and I first hung out for an extended period of time and the night of our first kiss. So this is a pretty special night in its own right even without the party.

Tonight, however, was more nerve wracking and more emotional than I had experienced in years, maybe in all my years. They start by calling out 10 of the 150 numbers for elimination. Then they take a break and the DJ plays some music and then another batch is called for elimination. My husband and I had 3 chances between us for the prize. His number was eliminated in the first few rounds. I still had my two. A few rounds of 10 numbers being called and we’re now on to batches of 25 numbers being called for elimination. I’m still in it with two numbers. Hubby is constantly redoing the math to figure out my odds.

There are ten numbers left. I have one of them.

There are now five numbers left. I have one of them.

There are now three numbers left. I have one of them. They ask the top three to come to the front of the stage so everyone can see their reactions. A very nice lady next to me introduces herself and shakes my hand. I reciprocate.

They call a number for elimination. There are now two left. I have one of them.

My head is swimming. The blood is rushing to my face. I’m closing my eyes and grasping my ticket, trying to be calm and mindful. People are shouting my name, someone asks me if I’m praying. I don’t pay attention…I CAN’T pay attention…my mind is a blur. I want to vomit. I think I’m going to…right in front of all the people. In front of the emcee. In front of my husband.

The last number is called for elimination. It’s mine. People come up and pat me on the back and ask me if I’m ok. No, not really, but thank you for asking. I mean, I’m fine. I didn’t come with that $10k and I’m not leaving with it. But wow, what a roller coaster.

I think about the cosmic meaning of what just happened the entire way home. I’m grateful I was close, but in all honesty, that kiss from my husband three years ago and my amazing life, friends and family far surpass any check I could have been given tonight. So while I didn’t win the raffle, I won the jackpot and I’m very happy with that.

But who are we kidding? I would have OWNED that check! 🙂

I’m not perfect

If you thought Truthbook Tuesday was good, wait until you read this. Not sure what to call today’s #bloglikecrazy post other than CONFESSION. I’ve been crying for the last 2 hours because I feel like I failed a friend. I messed up tonight and, while it’s not the end of the world, it was big enough to totally undo any good tonight brought. I am not going to get into specifics for the sake of my friend (sorry to be vague), but I did not do right by her tonight even though my intentions were good and sincere.

I have a wonderful friend who I am extremely proud of. She’s overcome a lot of obstacles in her professional and personal life and I really look up to her and all she’s accomplished. Tonight, rather than listen to her and what SHE wanted on a matter, I took things into my own hands and thought I knew best. The result was less than stellar.

I feel horrible that I put this friend into an uncomfortable position, especially on what may have been a very special night for her. There are no words to express how sorry I am or how bad I feel for not listening to her. But lemme tell ya, lesson learned! When a friend tells you something, LISTEN!

I have already apologized and I know she has already forgiven me. But that doesn’t take away from the sorrow I feel for having put her in that situation in the first place. Please know that I never, ever want to do anything but lift my friends up and if I’m trying and you tell me not to, slap me if I don’t listen.

That’s my rant for today. And my apology. You are loved. ALL of you. And know that I only have good intentions!

Truthbook Tuesday

1. I know it’s not Tuesday, but I had a late night and missed yesterday’s post for #bloglikecrazy. So HERE IT IS! We’ll just pretend it’s still Tuesday. There’ll be another post later today for WEDNESDAY!

2. I’m borrowing this phrase from my friend Marlene who posts these every Tuesday on Facebook: Truthbook Tuesday™. Every Tuesday she posts some very real truths about whatever might be on her mind at the moment…some happy, some mad, some sad, and everything in between. She also invites her readers to share their truths in the Comments section. So, here we go!

Truthbook Tuesday™ – YouGotRossed edition

  • My favorite pair of underwear has Hello Kitty on them and my 2nd favorite pair has cowboys all over them.
  • I would wear Underoos IN A HEARTBEAT if they still made them and made them in my size.
  • My favorite thing to eat is seafood – namely scallops, crab, and shrimp. All day, err day!
  • I’m learning about my chakras RIGHT NOW thanks to these gals.
  • I’ve always wanted to buy an old VW “bus” and travel the country like gypsies, wearing long, flowy skirts, flowers in my hair, playing a guitar.
  • On a more serious note, last night at the Birmingham Girls Club holiday party, I was stunned when one of the ladies shared that she was a sexual abuse survivor..someone that I thought I knew pretty well. I am betting there are so many more of my lovely friends – men and women – who are, too. Please know that although I am not licensed in any way, if you ever need someone to talk to or need help finding out where to turn, please call me day or night. There are a ton of resources at our disposal – a lot just within the BGC. And friend, I wanted to thank you for sharing that revelation last night with those you knew and those you didn’t. Here’s my truth: I am too.